The players are still behind me, Kettering is behind me, the staff is behind me, everyone is behind me. Unfortunately, the chairman is not.
When it comes to drinking, I don't look to the future now. Because it only brings worry. I live day by day, a day at a time, as they say.
I was proud playing for England in the World Cup. Every game I played in, I did really, really well. I had the world at my feet, you know.
And that way, I don't blame other people. I'm the one that has to keep off the drink. I'm taking responsibility for my life on everything.
When I was playing, I wasn't drinking at the weekends. Not after the game, not on Sundays, when I would just relax, have a sauna, things like that.
Hopefully everybody will just let me get on with my life. I'm going to.
Well, I did know - but I just wanted the day to pass and the next day to come and then I wanted that one to pass. It was a horrible cycle. I felt so close to having to pack the game in.
I thought I did well for someone who has been out for 10 or 11 months. Then I was sub against Liverpool and tried to play for the guys and work on my fitness.
Anyway, how can you sack anyone who still hasn't got a contract. I'll be there for the game and I'll stand behind the dugout giving instructions to the players from there. They will respond to me more than the next manager.
I never predict anything, and I never will.
I'm going to do things that make me happy. I have always felt that other people are running my life. I don't want that any more.
I'm not going to get that pace back but I can beat people with my pace in the head. I just want to get back in the team and enjoy this season.
At the end of it, I'll maybe do a coaching badge but I'm not going to get forced into things.
I feel sorry for the fans because they are laying out a lot of money now and if the players don't perform, they are getting robbed of their money.
I still have my problems but I try and deal with them a bit better now. I don't let them ride on for a month then realise I've got a stack of them.
I'll have a think about it all around next February but I've got a year left here and I can still finish off my career on a high note at Everton.