I have the one person I could ever love in this world. Now I must work to be a person worthy of that.
Your body Hurts me as the world hurts God
To annihilate the world by annihilation of oneself is the deluded height of desperate egoism.
Don't talk to me about the world needing cheerful stuff! What the person out of Belsen physical or psychological wants is nobody saying the birdies still go tweet-tweet, but the full knowledge that somebody else has been there and knows the worst, just what it is like.
I felt like a racehorse in a world without racetracks.
I need not to be more with others, but to be more & more deeply, richly alone. Recreating worlds.
If every soldier refused to take arms ... there would be no wars; but no one has the courage to be the first to live according to Christ and Socrates, because in a world of opportunists they would be martyred.
Doing all the little tricky things it takes to grow up, step by step, into an anxious and unsettling world.
It is a terrible thing to be so open: it is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world.
Feel oddly barren. My sickness is when words draw in their horns and the physical world refuses to be ordered, recreated, arranged and selected. I am a victim of it then, not a master.
I must be lean & write & make worlds beside this to live in.
I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be shadow.
It is so much safer not to feel, not to let the world touch me.