To survive you must find yourself then it won't matter where you are.
As you run out of options and energy you must become resigned to your plight. Like it or not you must make a new mental map of where you are, not where you wish you were. To survive you must find yourself, then it won't matter where you are.
Bureaucracies force us to practice nonsense. And if you rehearse nonsense, you may one day find yourself the victim of it.