I remember at the time telling my therapist that it felt...

I remember at the time telling my therapist that it felt really good to be down, to be in pain or whatever. Because it was like: 'Oh yeah, I am human.' Not that I was devoid of emotion before, but to go that far, that deep, it's like: 'Wow, this is what it's like to be human.' In some sick way it felt good.