Did that mean carrying a hand mirrow with me at all times so...

Did that mean carrying a hand mirrow with me at all times so I could see myself from every angle? No, nothing so drastic or inane. Self-examination is usually a half-hearted, spontaneous thing we do when we're either scared or bored. As a result, whatever conclusions we reach are distorted either by a clumsy urgency or a listless sigh. But in my own case, I simple wanted to be less surprised by what I did after I did it.