I was being kept abreast of everything by phone, phoned...

I was being kept abreast of everything by phone, phoned almost by the hour, so I knew everything that was going on... I still can't come to terms with it now. It's just almost like a dream. It's like a nightmare that you wake up to every day. That's all we can say. It's just devastating. It's going to take a long time even just for it to sink in.