She was reaching the limits of how much its possible to change a man
When I was an actor, I worked with lots of men who had a bit of success early on, who were very good looking, who suddenly made a bit of money and who felt no embarrassment - and nor should they have done - about having a good time.
I love him, she thought. I'm just not in love with him and also I don't love him. I've tried, I've strained to love him but I can't. I am building a life with a man I don't love, and I don't know what to do about it.
And it was at moments like this that she had to remind herself that she was in love with him, or had once been in love with him, a long time ago.
Call me sentimental, but there's no-one in the world that I'd like to see get dysentery more than you
She realises that if she is to save the show she is going to have to improvise a rousing speech, one of the many Henry V moments that make up her working life.
I'm just not prepared to be treated like this anymore.' 'Treated like what?' She sighed, and it was a moment before she spoke. 'Like you always want to be somewhere else, with someone else.
People change, no use getting sentimental about it. Move on, find someone else.