Alone everything changes. Some might call it distorted reality but it's exactly the place I need to be.
I don't love him, & he definitely doesn't love me. Still, he semi-fills a gaping black hole inside me. That place wants love, maybe even needs love, but love is something I"m pretty sure doesn't exist.
Sorry. But I don't need some money-grubbing preacher defining my relationship with God.
Starving for a high, a place to hang out inside my own head. Starving for touch. Pain, even. A way to feel. I need to feel.
I wish I were worthy of his love. (Any love.)I should tell him to run. But I can't. I need him.
A Problem Is really just a solution in need of a reason to exist.
I don't need more pain in my life. Why did I invite it in? Do I have to feel pain to believe I feel anything at all?