DO not lay the blame on Godhead, as you are prone to do. When everything goes right you say that God has come close to you; when something goes wrong you say that God has deserted you and gone far away! He does not move far or near.
There is in life the tragedy of ignorance and selfishness. They force man to take the wrong road; and suffer calamity.
Repent for all the wrongs done and resolve not to repeat the mistake; then God will extend His grace.